Somewhere out there
Now we are so far apart, and it has been months since the last time we were together. I thought that my missing to you would become less and less as the time passed by. But now I realize I was totally wrong because I can't explain how come both this great distance and long time apart has even made my love for you grow.
As the sun rose and set day by day, the control I had just vanished slowly. At the time I said farewell to NY and flew back to Beijing, my heart became shattered because I knew it was the time for us to separate, maybe forever.
The last night finally came, and we were together. I would rather die than be away from you becauseI still loved you so much. How tiny we human beings are! How hopeless I was! Being aware of these cruel facts that I could never change, being aware of the coming departure that I could not avoid, I knelt in front of you and kissed you devotedly with eyes closed, down my face running the tears.Suddenly, I felt something cold falling on my shoulders and breasts. No sooner did I realize that was your tears than mine rolled down my cheeks more crazily, totally out of control. Forever shall we remember that touching moment; forever shall we keep all these memories in mind: painful departure, bitter tears, sweet passion, and sincere devotion.
At the next noon came our last dinner. I could hardly eat anything. My heart was totally broken. Several times I hid myself outside the dinning room lest my tears were noticed. During these days with you, I was never alone because you always kept me company. Together we attended classes, together we went swimming, together we had dinner, together we surfed the Internet, together we had a walk after supper, together we went shopping, together we chatted via telephone till midnight or even the next morning, together we watched the dog show, together we enjoyed the exotic sceneries... it was just yesterday that you dressed me, trimmed my fingernails and toenails, cleaned my earholes. Now we were about to part. The time of reunion was actually of no bound. After this noon, I had to go on my life journey alone, and you would go back to the place you belonged to. Life continues. It seems that nothing has been changed, but, in fact, I am no longer myself... |